Feel

I don’t know why people are so hell bent on following other peoples prototypes, i mean why do everyone want to classify people as this and that. Other people can be so inconsiderate when considering your case, so much that sometimes you feel like just forgetting about the rest of the world and just doing what you really want. But can u really do anything u want without the rest of the world interfering with you?.just think about it..how you really don’t have any freedom. All the freedom you think you have is just like a curtain which has the picture of a green meadow with beautiful sun shining down on it..but pull the curtain away and u expose a dried out field with whr no life can survive. Probably as u grew older, certain freedom was given to u, but does this freedom have any strings attached to it. I think its like as you grow older, the chain around ur neck becomes longer and longer so tht u can explore more things but does this chain ever come out..can u ever be rid of this leash, experience real freedom?..i , really don’t think most ppl are lucky enough in their life, some ppl might get the chance to experience it . But then what does the jealous society say about these ppl...they call them good-for –nothings, unsuccessful etc etc..

Parents, relatives, friends etc etc care about you and hence they might try to advice you but do they really have any rights at all to stop you from doing something you want??..they say if you really know tht u want something, no one can stop you from doing it..is tht real??..how many ppl will you disobey, against how many ppl’s wishes do you dare to go??..there will surely be someone in your life u care about, be it family or a friend..do you dare to go against them if need arises??..make someone you love and who loves you hate you just so tht you can do what u needed to do..i think it the eternal question one needs to answer before you go AHEAD in life..

DO YOU DARE INCUR THE WRATH AND HATRED OF SOMEONE YOU LOVE AND WHO LOVES YOU SO MUCH THAT YOU WOULD GIVE YOUR LIFE FOR THEM JUST SO THAT YOU CAN DO WHAT YOUR HEART YEARNS TO DO..TO DO THE ONE THING THAT WOULD MAKE YOUR HEART GO MAD WITH JOY..TO DO THE THING THAT U REALLY AND MADLY WANT TO DO...

There you have the answer, there you have your chain, there you have the leash tht pulls you back that keeps you chained up..elongating and shortening as it pleases but never letting go.

How many answered the above question with a “yes..i dare to”..??..even i did want to..but think for a bit..do you really?..

Take a small eg.. some dayz back when i went out with my aunt, we saw a guy in a bike. He was wearing a sleeveless shirt which exposed his arms..he had a tattoo of some kind on his arm and one of eyebrow was pierced. As soon as my aunt saw him, she said” look at that guy, i didn’t know these type of people came here”..type??..whats his type??..such a small incident in which people classify people based on their looks and attitude got me thinking. Cant a normal guy who goes to work in the morning to a good job be tattooed???...cant a guy just go about his life, not bothering with anyone else without the world stereotyping him ??..why cant the world just stop assuming things..

Its really making me go mad...not that i want to change anything major in my life..i am happy as i am, but just the thought that i cant even if i want to scares me , sickens me..what if a day comes when i want to do something which everyone would want me not to do..then that day do i dare do it??..can i do it??..will i chicken out??..will i have the courage to do it??..will i want to do it??..

I really don’t know. That drives me mad..

I really wish i was born in a much different world..a world in which people don’t really care about other people, where people depend on other people just for physical and emotional needs..where people don’t form relations with other people...where people don’t really care a fuck about anyone else but just pretend to do it just for the sake of their needs...how i wish..

But to assume that this world will change or that some one can make it change is just foolish. As SLIPKNOT puts it it one of their new songs, don’t remember which..” The world will never change. The only answer is annihilation...obliteration”..though the first part is true second part can be argued about coz even if u annihilate people, new people replace them..who might look different, have different views even have different lifestyles but still retain the human tendency to form relations and connections...that itself is the problem u wanted to eliminate...

All i wanted to say to say is this..im not telling you to try to break the chain or to fight your emotions...just telling you that the next time you feel the tug of the leash on your neck, just remember that you r not free in the real sense and never will be ..is there hope??..the answer is for the courageous to answer.

These are few lines from METALICA’S song LOW MAN’S LYRIC

“My eyes seek reality AND my fingers seek my vein”

An extreme measure maybe, but this is the reality..and once you seen the truth, theres no going back..only ending it or trudging ahead knowing that you will never win but still must reach the finishing line because those you love expect you to..

This reminds me of another line from the song:

“So as i write to you, of what is done And to do..

Maybe ull understand..”

I hope you do..i really do..someday u will...i end by saying this..this is from METALLICA’S song UNFORGIVEN 2;

“Lie beside me under wicked sky

The doors cracks open, but theres no sun shining through

“she lay beside me, but will she be there when im gone”

WILL SHE BE THERE??..DO U WANT HER TO BE THERE??..DOES IT MATTER IF SHES THERE??..